I have an odd preference for using my fingers to pray the rosary rather than an actual rosary. I get distracted by the rosary in my hands otherwise- which is assuredly my fault for lacking strong concentration. Either way I find myself immersed in the prayer when I use my fingers, but struggling to keep focus using the rosary.
The problem is, people are too nice. You can’t pray the rosary in a group without somebody jumping to the rescue ” here! I have an extra one!” And then I feel I must accept for politeness’ sake.
I just really like using my fingers. That’s why there’s ten of them, right?
And on a random (I’m thinking about the interview I had today) note:
I hate the questions “what do you think your best qualities are?” and “what do you think your worst qualities are?” Questions like those give me a mental explosion.
On the one hand I know I exaggerate my worst qualities in my mind and belittle my good ones. I just do this. And I know it. Knowing this I willfully try not to. Then again I know they’re expecting an answer that makes you a good candidate but also honest. And hey I have a problem talking about my good qualities because I feel like I’m sounding conceited. Like can I just talk about myself and you find out my good qualities for yourself? Think of me as a character in a book. I have no problem with you analyzing my character. Remember twelfth grade English. That’s right! Character sketch!
And when I’m asked what my worst qualities are I instantly think of every bad thing I’ve ever done. I ATE THE. COOKIE WHEN I WAS TEN. I SAID I DIDN’T. BUT IT WAS ME. IM GUILTY. GUILTY I SAY.
You know what really bugs me? That a boy can be seen as “unmanly” for reading certain books but nobody blinks an eyelash at a girl reading anything she chooses.
The books I’m talking about aren’t even necessarily “girly” by nature or whatever. They’re books that a boy would enjoy just as well as a girl, but because the cover image is of a girl etc. suddenly it’s not okay for a boy to read? I mean wut.